quotes

if you believe you can do it, you can do it
tataplah ke depan, percayalah akan masa depan yang pasti akan datang
tidak bisa bukan hal yang memalukan, yang memalukan adalah tidak mau mencobanya meskipun tahu tidak bisa

August 26, 2012

Haru Haru (Dream High 2)



Haru Haru


Translation:
I have an old dream
Will I able to meet you someday?
But I always at the same place,
wetting my cheeks with weak tear
when each day by day passes
I afraid my dream will have lost it's way
in the wind and disappear
Long ago in my diary,
just like I've promised
I hope you won't get tired day by day
Today, I dream again
I see I was smiling
My hope that I will meet you for sure someday
I will wait until it is become fulfilled
when each day by day passes
My dreams that come with the wind fills me up
Long ago in my diary,
just like I've promised
I hope you won't get tired day by day

July 11, 2012

It's the Real Me

they said you'll make it
they said you'll get whatever you want
they said keep dreaming then you'll get it
they said you are the best
they said i know you can do it
they said congratulations
they said i am feeling so proud of you
they said you are the luckiest person in this world

but i said this is embarrassing
i can do nothing
i can't get whatever I've dream
i am not the perfect one..
i want to cry everyday
i can't face the world myself

this is the real me..

          *****

April 22, 2012

Yang Terbaik Bagimu (Jangan Lupakan Ayah)



Yang Terbaik Bagimu (Jangan Lupakan Ayah)


Teringat masa kecilku,
kau peluk dan kau manja.
Indahnya saat itu
buatku melambung
disisimu terngiang
hangat nafas segar harum tubuhmu.
Kau tuturkan segala
mimpi-mimpi serta harapanmu

Kau ingin ku menjadi
yang terbaik bagimu
Patuhi perintahmu
Jauhkan godaan
yang mungkin ku lakukan
dalam waktu ku beranjak dewasa
Jangan sampai membuatku
terbelenggu, jatuh , dan terinjak

Tuhan tolonglah
sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
tak kan khianati pintanya
Ayah dengarlah
betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan
ku mampu penuhi maumu

Andaikan detik itu
kan bergulir kembali
Ku rindukan suasana
basuh jiwaku
dan bahagiakan aku
yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu
tuk wujudkan segala
sesuatu yang pernah terlewati.

Tuhan tolonglah
sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
tak kan khianati pintanya
Ayah dengarlah
betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan
ku mampu penuhi maumu.


TRANSLATION
The Best Thing For You (Don't Forget Father)

A thought of my childhood,
you hugged and spoiled me.
How beautiful was this moment
(that) made me bounching high.
In your side buzzing
the warmth fresh of your fragrant.
You told me everything
about your dreams and hopes.

You want me to be
the best one for you.
Obeying your rules
to stay away temptations
that I might do
at the time I am getting mature.
Don't let them makes me
being manacled, fall, and being stepped on.

God, please help
tell my millions of loves for him.
I will always promising
won't betray his fate.
Father please hear
how much I really love you.
I will prove you
I can fulfill your wish.

If these seconds
could be turned back
I would miss the ambience,
(that) washing my soul
and bring myself happiness,
for your love and affection I have thirstiness
to recreate everything,
that have been missed

God, please help
tell my millions of loves for him.
I will always promising
won't betray his fate.
Father please hear
how much I really love you.
I will prove you
I can fulfill your wish.


April 09, 2012

All the World's a Stage


All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything. 

-William Shakespeare-

A Fairy Song (William Shakespeare)


Over hill, over dale,
Thorough bush, thorough brier,
Over park, over pale,
Thorough flood, thorough fire!
I do wander everywhere,
Swifter than the moon's sphere;
And I serve the Fairy Queen,
To dew her orbs upon the green;
The cowslips tall her pensioners be;
In their gold coats spots you see;
Those be rubies, fairy favours;
In those freckles live their savours;
I must go seek some dewdrops here,
And hang a pearl in every cowslip's ear. 

-William Shakespeare-

Smile (Michael Jakson)




Smile

-Michael Jackson (in Charlie Chaplin)-



Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile


*note: keep smiling, guys.. :D

March 14, 2012

Oppa Nappa SNSD

SNSD - Oppa Nappa Lyrics (Romaninzed)




da aneunde nan aninde
geuraedo nochigin sirheunde
ttak hanbeonman nae mareul deureoyo
oppaapeseon yeojaran mariya


narang baphanbeon meongneunge geureoke himdeungayo
ijeotdamyeonseo honjaramyeonseo
geueonnin wae mannanayo


ajik naneun andoenayo
manhi bujokhangayo
hanbeonman nal mideobwayo
naega jal halsu inneunde


wae jakkuman utgiman haeyo
naega geureoke aegi gatnayo
ttak hanbeonman nae jinsimeul deureoyo
oppa apeseon yeojaran mariya


narang baphanbeon meongneunge
geureoke himdeungayo

ijeotdamyeonseo honjaramyeonseo
geueonnin wae mannanayo


ajik naneun andoenayo
manhi bujokhangayo
hanbeonman nal mideobwayo
naega jal halsu inneunde


harue manbeon


saenggagi nayonunmuri nado nan ireoke chama
geudael saranghamyeon andoel iyurado innayo
ijeotdamyeonseo honjaramyeonseo


geueonnin wae mannanayooppan jeongmal nappeun saram
jeongmal naemameul molla
nal mideobwayo
nado jalhalsu inneunde





SNSD - Oppa Nappa Lyrics (Translations)




I know that I'm not the one.
But I still don't want to lose you.
Listen to me just this once.
I'm a woman when I stand in front of you.

Is it so hard to take me out once?
You said you moved on. You said you were alone.
So why do you keep seeing her?

Am I not the one yet?
Am I not good enough?
Please just believe in me this once.

Why do you keep smiling?
Do I seem like such a child to you?
Listen to my sincerity just this once.
I'm a woman when I stand in front of you.

Is it so hard to take me out once?
You said you moved on. You said you were alone.
So why do you keep seeing her?

Am I not the one yet?
Am I not good enough?
Please just believe in me this once.
I can be good to you.

A million times a day.

You come to mind.

Even though my eyes tear, I hold them back.

Is there a reason why I shouldn't love you?
You said you moved on. You said you were alone.

Then why do you keep seeing her?

Oppa, you are a really bad person.
You really don't know how I feel.
Just believe in me. I can be good to you too.


Read more: http://snsdforever993.blogspot.com/2010/05/snsd-oppa-nappa-lyrics.html#ixzz1p6Xv8TH3

January 27, 2012

human brain



Arrival of and countermeasure for the declining birth rate and aging population
Our country cannot avoid the present situation of a declining birth rate and aging population. There are many conceivable reasons for the rapid decline in the population of citizens under fourteen years of age. We cannot forget to mention the worsening of the global environment as one of the factors. Computers have predicted that the tendency of a declining birth rate and aging population will continue even further by the year 2020.
The number of people who take the abacus official examination is declining. I hope that the abacus education will diversify itself in order to attract a larger range of examinees for the official examination by developing a system in which older people can take the examinations as well.
I have studied engineering in college and have done some research in polymer materials. About twenty years ago, I was given an opportunity to conduct research to develop materials for medicine. In our country that had to suddenly accept the aging population, there are many patients who were helped by the drastic development of medical technology and knowledge. National medical expenses are rising, and I worry about the future with this situation.
Research for saving patients from terrible diseases and injuries is important, but now the search for healthy living conditions seems more important to me. Public Nursing Care Insurance System is now available, but what is most important is to live a happy, healthy life without having to depend on that system. There is an old saying that worry is often the cause of illness. Recent medical research has shown that various diseases are influenced by how the patients deal with their state of minds. People with active minds maintain their youthful energy longer. What can we do to heighten our brain activity?
Development of human brain
What is the structure of our brain like? How does the brain develop? Cerebral physiology has seen great developments. However, there still is much that is unknown about our brain. Our brain is truly amazing. What we know up to this point includes that the human brain is created at an early stage of embryo development and that cerebral nerve cells are already made by the time of birth. Within the brain, the brain stem (all living animals have it, and it controls the functions necessary for survival such as the functions of the heart and internal organs) and the cerebral archicortex (which controls basic instincts such as appetite, sexual desire, sleep, desire to belong to a group, and emotions such as pleasant and unpleasant feelings, fear, anger,etc) are basically completed while in the womb.
On the other hand, among animals of higher order, humans have the highly developed cerebral neocortex that can create nerve cells (some say there are 14 billion nerve cells!). This cerebral neocortex does not fully function at the time of birth. In the following years, suitable stimuli start to activate (to connect motor nerves and sensory nerves) the nerve cells in the neocortex. This is why children grow up well in many aspects if they receive appropriate stimuli that develop the nerve cells in the neocortex. The archicortex is more or less completed at the time of birth, but it of course can develop even further after birth. What is important here is that the archicortex requires “to be loved” and is responsible for the cultivation of aesthetic sentiments.
What is important here is that the archicortex requires “to be loved” and is responsible for the cultivation of aesthetic sentiments. 
Humans cannot live without “being loved”. Only those who grew up being loved can learn to love as they grow older. With the help of a good archicortex, the neocortex will be activated efficiently. Even with hard work, efficiency will not improve without cooperation from the archicortex. In order to activate the nerve cells in the neocortex, information or stimuli from outside the brain have first to be perceived as “pleasant” by the archicortex. This is when the activation of the brain improves and the systems to process information in the neocortex are most efficiently completed. On the other hand, if the information or stimuli are perceived as “unpleasant”, the activation of the brain does not occur and the neocortex is suppressed to grow any further.
 In order to activate the nerve cells in the neocortex, information or stimuli from outside the brain have first to be perceived as “pleasant” by the archicortex. This is when the activation of the brain improves and the systems to process information in the neocortex are most efficiently completed.
Move the fingers and talk in a loud voice
What does the activation of the nerve cells in the neocortex mean? Nerve cells in the neocortex consist of 14 billion sets of motor nerves and sensory nerves. These sets create the network (synapses) in which they contact each other and make up a living nervous system. The importance lies in how many sets of nerve cells we can activate in our lives. We can activate the nerve cells by providing “stimuli”. Moving fingers and talking aloud lead to activation by providing appropriate stimuli in the large part of sensory to motor domains in the cerebral neocortex. In this sense, starting abacus learning as young as possible is useful in activating the brains of young children. However, if children learn to use the abacus without wanting to do it, there will be no positive effects. If they come to like learning the abacus and move the beads on the abacus with fun, they will receive benefits from this experience. There is a key in making abacus-learning fun for young children so that they will grow to like it.
Development of the right brain by the abacus method of mental calculation
The human brain consists of the right brain and the left brain. The shapes of these two parts are similar, but differences have been gradually found in their functions. The left brain is also referred to as the digital brain. It controls reading and writing, calculation, and logical thinking. The right brain is referred to as the analog brain. It controls three-dimensional sense, creativity, and artistic senses. These two work together to allow us to function as humans. The Japanese are thought to speak Japanese with their left brain, and this allows their left brain to be more efficient. On the other hand, westerners also utilize their right brain to learn their languages, so their right brain is usually more efficient. It is natural that young Japanese students are better at mathematical calculation than students in western countries who are the same age. It is also natural that, because of the better development in their right brain, students in western countries are more creative and original than Japanese students. In recent years, some have argued for the necessity of the Venture Promotion in Japan, but in order to foster this type of environment we need to develop an education system that would train the students’ right brain first. In addition, it is also found that if one trains the right brain, it is less likely to get dementia. Here, I would like to introduce the abacus method of mental calculation. In the abacus method of mental calculation, the learners manipulate abacus beads in their head to carry out a calculation. This had led us to speculate that this operation was effective in training the right brain or the analog brain. Thanks to the development of cerebral physiology and machines that can accurately measure the amount of blood flow in the brain, recent studies have proven that the abacus method of mental calculation is extremely effective in activating the right brain. This validated the speculation we had before. Therefore, I would like to ask all the abacus teachers to teach all learners the abacus method of mental calculation, no matter how briefly it may be. I consider the completion of abacus learning the mastery of the mental calculation.
Shining brain
Having grown up to be workers in various work places and providers for their families and contributors to society, many people retire from the forefront of the society and start the second stage of their lives. For these people, it is very important to live ample and healthy lives. In order to achieve this way of living, they have to remember to activate their brain as much as possible. There are many different ways to activate the brain, and one of them is the calculation with the abacus. In the abacus method of calculation, the abacus is not only the best way to exercise fingertips, but also positively influences the right brain to be activated. Although it may take a little more time than for younger people, activation in the cerebral nerve cells certainly does occur even at the age of a hundred. In this case also, they have to come to like the abacus first. Throughout the lifetime there is truth in the saying that you do well at what you like. A “master of life” is a person who has a cooperation of the archicortex and the neocortex throughout their lifetime. To become a “master of life”, we have to always aim high. There is happiness in this process to achieve the goals of our life. We all shine by pursuing our dreams with high hope and something to live for. The higher the goal of our growth, the better our lives are. If the purpose of life is the process to achieve this goal, then I believe that the abacus education can be one of the significant guidelines for life. I would like us all to be “life-long healthy people with abacus”.

to use our brain effectively, we must love what we are doing
(This article is the summary of a lecture presented in Nikko Kinugawa, Tochigi, Tochigi prefecture on July 30th, 2000.)

January 26, 2012

sempoa dan otak kanan


Dalam optimalimasi otak kanan, sempoa memiliki efek yang berkelanjutan. Efek pertama adalah peningkatan daya ingat numerik. Yang kedua adalah peningkatan daya ingat dalam penataan ruang. Ketiga adalah kemajuan dalam memecahkan masalah matematika umum yang diajarkan di sekolah dasar, termasuk empat perhitungan aritmatika dasar dan masalah kata.
Efek pertama, peningkatan daya ingat numerik, dapat ditunjukkan dengan meminta siswa mengingat tiga sampai sembilan digit nomor, membacanya keras-keras dan menyebutkan angka tersebut secara lisan. Siswa yang menguasai sempoa ditemukan lebih unggul dalam akurasi daya ingat mereka dan mereka dapat menghafalkan jumlah digit lebih banyak dibanding siswa yang tidak mempelajari sempoa pada usia yang sama. Hal ini dikarenakan siswa yang mempelajari sempoa menempatkan angka-angka pada gambar sempoa di kepala mereka saat mereka menghitung secara mental dengan menggunakan metode sempoa (mental aritmatika sempoa). Pemanfaatan gambar sempoa memungkinkan siswa bahkan untuk menghafal secara mundur. Hal ini mungkin terjadi karena penerapan prosedur yang digunakan dalam metode mental aritmatika sempoa adalah untuk memecahkan tugas hafalan.
Efek menguntungkan kedua adalah peningkatan daya ingat dalam penataan ruang. Hal ini diperiksa dengan menugaskan siswa untuk menghapus lokasi beberapa titik hitam kecil. Titik-titik ditempatkan pada titik persimpangan yang berbeda dari kotak yang dibuat dengan tiga sampai lima baris dalam vertikal maupun horizontal. Para siswa pertama melihat titik-titik selama beberapa detik untuk menghafal lokasi mereka, kemudian mereka diminta untuk menciptakan gambar yang sama dengan menempatkan titik-titik hitam pada kotak kosong. Akibatnya, peserta yang mempelajari sempoa memiliki nilai yang lebih tinggi dibandingkan yang tidak mempelajari sempoa. Pengaturan tata ruang dari titik-titik tidak memiliki nilai angka yang sama pada papan sempoa. Namun, kita bias berspekulasi bahwa pelatihan untuk mendapatkan gambar visual sempoa memiliki efek membuat siswa peka terhadap penataan ruang.
Kemajuan dalam memecahkan masalah matematika umum. Berikut tiga poin yang dikonfirmasi sebagai efek dari mempelajari sempoa dalam memecahkan masalah matematika umum.
1.      Temuan dari investigasi dengan siswa kelas tiga menunjukkan bahwa sekitar satu tahun belajar sempoa memungkinkan siswa untuk mendapat nilai lebih tinggi dibandingkan siswa yang tidak mempelajari sempoa pada masalah matematika tertentu. Masalah-masalah matematika termasuk penambahan satu digit angka, perkalian satu digit angka, penambahan multi-digit angka, pengurangan multi-digit angka, masalah kata dalam penambahan dan pengurangan, dan mengisi angka yang kosong (misalnya menyediakan angka yang hilang dalam persamaan berikut: _ - 7 = 27). Namun, tidak ada perbedaan yang ditemukan saat pemikiran konsep termasuk di dalamnya, salah satunya ketika siswa diminta untuk mencari tahu posisi digit. Meskipun pelajar sempoa yang pemula mendapat efek berkelanjutan dalam memecahkan masalah matematika, namun pemahaman konsep tidak termasuk di dalamnya.
Menurut analisis statistik, penambahan satu digit angka merupakan yang paling terkena efek langsung dari mempelajari sempoa. Perhitungan yang akurat dan cepat dari satu digit angka ditemukan mengarah ke hasil yang lebih baik dalam multi-digit perhitungan matematika, yang selanjutnya memberikan hasil yang lebih baik dalam masalahan kata dan mengisi angka yang kosong. Kita bisa berspekulasi bahwa siswa memiliki lebih banyak waktu untuk berpikir tentang masalah, dan karena itu dinilai lebih tinggi pada tugas karena mereka membutuhkan sedikit waktu untuk bekerja di luar perhitungan sederhana sebagai akibat dari latar belakang sempoa mereka.
2.      Pada tingkat yang lebih tinggi, siswa ditemukan telah menerima efek yang lebih signifikan dalam memecahkan beberapa jenis masalah matematika dibandingkan yang tidak belajar. Masalah-masalah ini meliputi perbandingan ukuran angka, perhitungan angka dengan beberapa pilihan jawaban yang diajukan, dan masalah kata. Selain itu, efek positif terlihat, tidak hanya dalam masalah matematika dengan bilangan bulat desimal, tetapi juga pada pecahan, terutama ketika membutuhkan pemikiran yang lebih tinggi untuk memecahkannya.
Dalam pelatihan sempoa, tidak ada pecahan yang terlibat, tapi efek berkelanjutan tersebut bahkan mempengaruhi pemecahan masalah dalam pecahan. Para siswa yang mempelajari sempoa ditemukan telah mengubah pecahan menjadi desimal, dalam rangka memecahkan masalah dengan pecahan. Mengubah angka ke dalam bentuk yang mereka mengerti adalah yang terbaik.
3.      Sebagaimana disebutkan di atas, siswa sempoa cenderung memecahkan masalah dalam bentuk dimana mereka dapat memanfaatkan pengetahuan mereka tentang perhitungan sempoa ketika dihadapkan dengan berbagai masalah matematika. Kecenderungan ini ditunjukkan ketika siswa sempoa diberi masalah estimasi komputasi (seperti sebuah tugas dimana siswa mengambil angka dengan digit terbesar). Dalam memecahkan masalah ini, banyak peserta didik sempoa pertama-tama menghitung seluruh masalah kemudian mengambil digit terbesar dari jawabannya.
Manfaat mempelajari sempoa adalah untuk memperoleh kemampuan untuk menghitung secara cepat dan akurat dengan mental (aritmatika sempoa).
Berdasarkan hasil di atas, beberapa keuntungan dan karakteristik belajar sempoa terungkap. Salah satu keuntungan dari mempelajari sempoa adalah bahwa peserta didik dapat menghitung masalah matematika sederhana secara cepat dan akurat. Selain itu, mereka memperoleh kemampuan melakukan perhitungan mental yang memanfaatkan gambar sempoa, yang memungkinkan perhitungan cepat tanpa benar-benar menggunakan sempoa.
Karakteristik ini menunjukkan efek berkelanjutan yang positif pada solusi dari berbagai masalah matematika. Di sisi lain, metode perhitungan menjadi tak bervariasi, dan siswa cenderung kurang fleksibel dalam berpikir daripada cara-cara inovatif untuk memecahkan masalah (seperti berpikir tentang arti perhitungan, atau dengan cara lain untuk menyelesaikan masalah) menghasilkan efek negatif dalam hal jumlah waktu yang diperlukan untuk memecahkan masalah ketika tujuan utamanya adalah perhitungan cepat dan akurat. Sejak pelatihan sempoa terdiri dari kinerja yang akurat dari prosedur sederhana, tidak ada alas an untuk mengubah metode pendidikan sempoa tradisional.
Otak manusia terdiri dari otak kanan dan otak kiri. Bentuk dari dua bagian yang sama, tetapi perbedaan telah ditemukan dalam fungsinya. Otak kiri disebut juga sebagai otak digital. Otak ini mengontrol manusia untuk membaca dan menulis, berhitung, dan berpikir logis. Otak kanan disebut sebagai otak analog. Otak kanan mengontrol akal tiga dimensi, kreativitas, dan indra artistik. Orang Jepang diperkirakan berbicara bahasa Jepang dengan otak kiri mereka, dan ini memungkinkan otak kiri mereka untuk menjadi lebih efisien. Di sisi lain, orang Barat memanfaatkan otak kanan untuk bahasa mereka, sehingga otak kanan mereka biasanya lebih efisien. Dalam mental aritmatika, manic-manik sempoa bermanipulasi di kepala mereka untuk melaksanakan perhitungan. Hal ini telah menyebabkan kita berspekulasi bahwa operasi ini efektif dalam pelatihan otak kanan atau otak analog. Berkat perkembangan fisiologi otak dan mesin yang secara akurat dapat mengukur jumlah aliran darah di otak, studi terbaru telah membuktikan bahwa metode sempoa merupakan perhitungan mental yang sangat efektif dalam mengaktifkan otak kanan. Hal ini menentang spekulasi kita sebelumnya.
Biasanya, orang-orang menghitung dalam pikiran mereka menggunakan suara hati, seperti dalam 100 – 7 = 93. Mereka menempatkan gagasan matematika dalam kata-kata. Di sisi lain, pengguna sempoa hanya memvisualisasikan gambar sempoa di kepala mereka. Mereka tidak mengganti gambar ke dalam kata-kata. Perbedaan ini dapat dilihat jelas dalam EEG (electroencephalography).
Namun itu tidak berarti bahwa belajar sempoa meningkatkan segala sesuatu tentang otak kanan seperti seni dan musik. Yang penting adalah bahwa kemampuan untuk memvisualisasikan dapat digunakan untuk pelajaran lain dan tingkah laku seseorang. Beberapa ahli sempoa menggunakan kemampuan mereka untuk menghafal seluruh halaman buku atau tahun dalam sejarah. 
(translated from http://www.shuzan.jp/english/index.html )

January 23, 2012

Let The Past Stay in The Past

There always another mountain to be climbed
I am trying to remember how long I haven't cried when I write this. I've learnt too much pain and a thing that I usually do is pretended that I didn't see it and act like everything is just fine. I've tried too much and I think I don't know how long I will still like this. I've been too tired actually, then I realized how hurt I am. I know that life isn't just for one thing. I know that I can change my perspective and start the new one, but may be I am too confused and don't know what must I do first. Today, I'll end those things and I'll start my new life. Although sometimes it come and try to hold my heart and my life again, I won't give up..
because let the past stays in the past